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[batmanschmatman]

When I first got here, someone [Costigan.] asked me what happens when you can't get the time away you need to de-stress and relax. When stuff just keeps piling on and there's no way to get some time away to just process all of it, and focus on yourself for a couple days. And I said that "you just suck it up and keep fighting the good fight", because it's either that or letting yourself get crushed under whatever it is you're working on and giving up on it.

I stand by that. If the job's that important, that you've stuck by it long enough to get to that point? You keep working on it. It's something that matters, and even if it sucks, it would be worse to let it destroy you, or to not get it done, or both.

[Private to Costigan]

You ready to get started?

[Private to Tim]

You doing any better, or should I be dropping by to make sure your head hasn't split in half since I've been gone?

[Private to Martha]

We're starting the meds today. I'll keep you updated on how things seem to be going so we can figure out when a good time to bring up the whole "how about just antidepressants" thing should be.

How've you been outside of all this?

[Private to Paddy]

Thanks for helping out with all that.

[Private to Steph]

So, how does being twenty feel?

[Private to Kirk]

In the highly unlikely event that I ever get that wasted and start drunk dialing the Barge, safe to say you're not the person who's going to confiscate my journal? [Amuuused.]

[Private to Ariadne]

[Several seconds of silence as he tries to figure out what to say and how to say it.] Sorry it took a flood with personality changes to make me apologize for being an ass when you first got here. I didn't really know what to say before, or if you'd even want to talk after what happened, sooo... yeah. Sorry about that.

[Derp derp, well, this isn't awkward at all. So, he's just switching off the feed after wondering if he should say something else.]

Comments

[batmanschmatman]

I'd rather get destroyed doing something important then give up on it and watch it fail.

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[batmanschmatman]

Which Zorro?

[kingfor-aday.livejournal.com]

As would I. There's just only so many times you can drag yourself over coals.

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[batmanschmatman]

[And that's an appreciative chuckle.] I am so glad someone's on my side about this.

It was pretty bad. And might have involved unfortunate metaphors to sex.

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[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

Given choices? Whichever is hottest.

[batmanschmatman]

I don't know, I've kind of always found there's something worth fighting for, even when you've hit a really low point. But I've also been told I'm a horrible masochist, so. Maybe my judgment isn't the best.

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[batmanschmatman]

I'm not sure I'm going to be helpful making that call, Steph.

[kingfor-aday.livejournal.com]

It's just finding it again, sometimes, that's all. Occasionally, it takes some doing.

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[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

You'll just have to show me all the covers, then. How many are there?

[batmanschmatman]

Yeah, I've definitely been there before. Probably one of the worst places to be.

[Private]

Are we just talking, or is something up? [Because it feels like something's up. :c]

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[batmanschmatman]

I have no idea. I don't actually own any Zorros. Or, if I do, they're not in this apartment.

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[kingfor-aday.livejournal.com]

Not as up as it was before.

I might have had something a lot more cynical to say a few weeks ago, compared to now.

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[batmanschmatman]

What's going on?

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[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

So where are we getting the movie from?

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[batmanschmatman]

... Well I doubt Bruce has them. [This is partially a joke.]

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[kingfor-aday.livejournal.com]

Nothing much. Just... coming out the other side of being a little lost like that.

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[batmanschmatman]

Well, if you want to talk about it, I happen to be an expert on life kind of crashing down around you in the worst possible ways. [This is said like it's a joke, but. It is not a joke. >>]

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[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

Dick.

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[batmanschmatman]

Martha?

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[kingfor-aday.livejournal.com]

It's not so much crashing down around me as... just ignoring a lot of things and pushing them away until they came to kick me in the face again.

I learnt that lesson, though.

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[batmanschmatman]

It's a good one to learn. I'm still not sure if I've really mastered it.

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[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

Much more helpful. Let's go ask her.

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[kingfor-aday.livejournal.com]

I don't think I have either.

It's a very tricky artform.

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[batmanschmatman]

Sounds good. How many Zorro films are there, anyway?

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[batmanschmatman]

If you ever figure it out entirely, let me know.

So, aside from all that, everything been okay?