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batmanschmatman) wrote2013-03-07 02:10 pm
batmanschmatman) wrote2013-03-07 02:10 pm
137 [voice]
[Dick clicks on the audio feed and takes a second to consider what he actually wants to say, here.]
I've been on the Barge for two years, three months, and one day. [Not that he's been counting.] I've met a lot of interesting people, been really amazing places, died and got about a dozen alternate lifetimes jumbling around in my head, and honestly, despite all the annoying stuff we've got to put up with on a daily basis here, it's been worth it. I'm never going to regret taking the Admiral up on his offer, and I'm glad he thought to give it to me in the first place.
But this place isn't somewhere to make into a home, [And he can't help but think about Cissie, and how she'd said she'd tried to convince herself that it was until she finally realized she just couldn't do it anymore, and how Tim had said he could stay here forever coming up with things to make bargains for, and that just wasn't a way to live your life.] and I could stay here forever punishing myself for mistakes or regrets, but that's no way to live your life, and I'd rather go home and do good there while there's still some good left in me, rather than let this place pretty much keep trying to beat it out of me.
So, I'm going home. For good this time, at least for now. I guess I can't make any promises you won't be seeing me again in a couple months. [But he also can't make any promises that he will come back, and he doesn't want to do that to anyone.
And you can practically hear the self depreciating smile:] I was gonna say something like it's been fun or real or a pleasure, or something, but none of that really does it justice, does it?
[Filtered to Friends, if you think you're on it, you are!]
I'll be around for another couple hours getting stuff organized. The door's unlocked. [So feel free to drop by. :c]
[Private to Alex]
We should probably talk before I go.
[Private to Rorschach]
If you ever need someone to talk to, [Read: if you ever need to talk to me.] or just blow off some steam with, you know you've got an open invite back to my world, right?
[He has a feeling you won't appreciate him getting more sentimental than that, but. He might anyway, sorry Rorschach. :c]
[Private to Cass]
I know you've heard a lot of scary stuff about the future, and believe me, I can't blame you for being nervous about going back home. [Seriously. Because:] Two years ago, I found out a lot of stuff I had a really hard time accepting about my future, and it took me a long time to come to terms with it even a little bit. I'm still a little afraid of going back and actually living through all of it.
But I can promise you one thing: it gets better. I know it might not seem like it, but things turn out okay in the end, and I don't want you to stay here letting the Barge wear you down because you're scared. I did that for a long time, and I don't want to see you make the same mistakes I did.
[Private to Ivy]
Can I ask a strange favor?
[Private to Kay]
I've got a write up on everything I remember from the last time the bridge was compromised and what Capa, Connor and I saw there, and you seemed like the right person to give it to. [He's always trusted and respected Kay, even if they haven't been particularly close, and he knows he won't let the information fall into the wrong hands.]
I have no idea what's going on with the Admiral right now or how bad it could feasibly get, and to be honest, I feel like an asshole for skipping out like this, but I know whatever it is, you guys will figure out a way to get through it.
[Private to Oliver]
If you ever run into a kid named Roy Harper, don't kick him out when you find out he's turned to heroin because you've been a terrible excuse for a parent to him.
[Private to Bruce]
[And again, he hesitates before saying anything, because he doesn't want to screw this up, or if he should even be bothering with it at all.]
I get that you're hurting, and I'm sorry we didn't have more time to try and set things right, [Not that it really matters, because Bruce would still be going home to a Dick Grayson who was furious with him.] but don't punish yourself by condemning yourself to this place. You did everything you could to make sure we were safe, and sometimes, that's just not enough. It's not your fault.
I still don't agree with you, [And he wasn't sure he could really forgive him yet, or ever.] but I don't think you deserve to fester here forever. You can do a lot more good at home if you forgive yourself and go back to helping people than just sitting around here feeling sorry for yourself.
[ooc: And Dick will hang around for any spam people want to do, but then he's off for a much needed vacation... back to Gotham which is admittedly not a vacation at all but there you go.]
I've been on the Barge for two years, three months, and one day. [Not that he's been counting.] I've met a lot of interesting people, been really amazing places, died and got about a dozen alternate lifetimes jumbling around in my head, and honestly, despite all the annoying stuff we've got to put up with on a daily basis here, it's been worth it. I'm never going to regret taking the Admiral up on his offer, and I'm glad he thought to give it to me in the first place.
But this place isn't somewhere to make into a home, [And he can't help but think about Cissie, and how she'd said she'd tried to convince herself that it was until she finally realized she just couldn't do it anymore, and how Tim had said he could stay here forever coming up with things to make bargains for, and that just wasn't a way to live your life.] and I could stay here forever punishing myself for mistakes or regrets, but that's no way to live your life, and I'd rather go home and do good there while there's still some good left in me, rather than let this place pretty much keep trying to beat it out of me.
So, I'm going home. For good this time, at least for now. I guess I can't make any promises you won't be seeing me again in a couple months. [But he also can't make any promises that he will come back, and he doesn't want to do that to anyone.
And you can practically hear the self depreciating smile:] I was gonna say something like it's been fun or real or a pleasure, or something, but none of that really does it justice, does it?
[Filtered to Friends, if you think you're on it, you are!]
I'll be around for another couple hours getting stuff organized. The door's unlocked. [So feel free to drop by. :c]
[Private to Alex]
We should probably talk before I go.
[Private to Rorschach]
If you ever need someone to talk to, [Read: if you ever need to talk to me.] or just blow off some steam with, you know you've got an open invite back to my world, right?
[He has a feeling you won't appreciate him getting more sentimental than that, but. He might anyway, sorry Rorschach. :c]
[Private to Cass]
I know you've heard a lot of scary stuff about the future, and believe me, I can't blame you for being nervous about going back home. [Seriously. Because:] Two years ago, I found out a lot of stuff I had a really hard time accepting about my future, and it took me a long time to come to terms with it even a little bit. I'm still a little afraid of going back and actually living through all of it.
But I can promise you one thing: it gets better. I know it might not seem like it, but things turn out okay in the end, and I don't want you to stay here letting the Barge wear you down because you're scared. I did that for a long time, and I don't want to see you make the same mistakes I did.
[Private to Ivy]
Can I ask a strange favor?
[Private to Kay]
I've got a write up on everything I remember from the last time the bridge was compromised and what Capa, Connor and I saw there, and you seemed like the right person to give it to. [He's always trusted and respected Kay, even if they haven't been particularly close, and he knows he won't let the information fall into the wrong hands.]
I have no idea what's going on with the Admiral right now or how bad it could feasibly get, and to be honest, I feel like an asshole for skipping out like this, but I know whatever it is, you guys will figure out a way to get through it.
[Private to Oliver]
If you ever run into a kid named Roy Harper, don't kick him out when you find out he's turned to heroin because you've been a terrible excuse for a parent to him.
[Private to Bruce]
[And again, he hesitates before saying anything, because he doesn't want to screw this up, or if he should even be bothering with it at all.]
I get that you're hurting, and I'm sorry we didn't have more time to try and set things right, [Not that it really matters, because Bruce would still be going home to a Dick Grayson who was furious with him.] but don't punish yourself by condemning yourself to this place. You did everything you could to make sure we were safe, and sometimes, that's just not enough. It's not your fault.
I still don't agree with you, [And he wasn't sure he could really forgive him yet, or ever.] but I don't think you deserve to fester here forever. You can do a lot more good at home if you forgive yourself and go back to helping people than just sitting around here feeling sorry for yourself.
[ooc: And Dick will hang around for any spam people want to do, but then he's off for a much needed vacation... back to Gotham which is admittedly not a vacation at all but there you go.]