batmanschmatman | 085 [voice]

So, I know everything's been more or less said and done about that flood, but honestly? I'm still just kind of shocked that for once, I was a kid and came out of it pretty trauma free. [Hell, even if he had actually been mentally fourteen again, things would have been fine. He might have had a weird childhood, but there were good parts of it, and fourteen had definitely been before shit had really hit the fan.

A pause, and then:]

[Somewhat reluctant generous Friends Filter. If you think you're on it, you are.]

Actually, as long as I'm being honest? It helped me realize some things.

I've realized I've spent most of my time here kind of terrified of what was waiting for me back home, and I won't lie, I'm still kind of scared about some of it. I know it all works out okay, now, but there's really no guarantee if I ever leave here I'll remember what I've been told here - [His money is going on that he won't remember, honestly, otherwise things would have gone veryyyy differently. :|] - And I've already lost two parents. I don't need to go through losing another, even if it's going to turn out he was fine. Just... time displaced, or something, so we all just thought he was dead for months.

[A pause. Because, really comic book logic?]

I'm still really not sure how that happened.

But it's going to happen whether or not I want it to, because as much as I might want to? I'm not drastically altering the futures of people I love who say they're happy with how everything worked out in the end, and sitting here pretending like it isn't going to happen is really ridiculous. And something about that flood made me realize maybe this really isn't so bad. There are a lot worse things that could have happened, and I can't hide here forever. And I don't want to anymore.

This isn't a I've had enough, I'm leaving announcement or anything. I've still got a lot of stuff I need to get done here before I seriously think about shipping out for good. But it's nice to not be afraid anymore. Or, to be afraid, but accept that and move forward instead of worrying about it, because everything is going to be okay.

... Kind of embarrassing that it took me a year to figure this out, but, I guess that's better than nothing.

[ooc: And again, comment over on DW here.]

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I didn't remember anything of this place when I went home.

Although I did write that book awfully fast and suddenly...

You wrote a book?

Oh, yes. I hadn't said?

If you had, I hadn't heard.

Well I've told you now.

It's an adventure novel about terrorists, and mummies, and the French, and more or less everybody I know. And the Queen.

Got a spare copy lying around?

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Glad you finally realized that brooding's my thing.

I wouldn't call it brooding, more like... privately freaking out about it.

But you're done with that now. Is this because of the action figures? [did I awesomely help you at the ripe age of ten. c:]

Yeah. [Is that even a question.] Sorry it took me this long to figure it out.

[Yes. No. Shush.] It's okay. I've long since come to terms with the fact that not everyone is as smart as me.

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So are we gonna have a Future Party or what?

What would it involve?

Cupcakes with futuristic flying saucers, for one.

Sounds interesting.

Maybe some old new year's candles? I bet we have all sorts of random stuff stowed away.

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Thanks for taking Tim off my hands.

No problem.

Why do you do it?

Do what?

Stick around here. Is it just because Tim's here? If I left and Tim didn't have a reason to stay, you could both go home.

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I'm glad you learned something, I guess.

Mostly I'm just glad you're not leaving just yet. [Lots of her friends have left lately, okay? :|]

Oh, and sorry about the barrage of questions - I had even less of a filter as a kid than I do now.

Don't worry about it. I'm guessing you managed to get over to Versailles at some point since then?

A few times, actually, yeah.

I was expecting it to be bigger.

It's still really pretty, though. I kind of wish we spent more time there.