I guess everything that needs to be said about that breach has kind of been said already, but honestly, I kind of prefer those to ones where only half the Barge is confused about where they are and what the hell is going on. It's been my experience it's a little less awful if you get in a fight with someone you're pals with back here when you're both not yourself.

[And he does actually have first hand experience on how bad that sucks when one person's affected and the other's not, thanks Mirrorverse. :|]

Anyway, this something that came up a couple days ago that I figured was worth saying to a wider audience: I know this place is hard on people in general? But for non-vampires, it would probably be a good idea for people to make sure they're heading into the CES for some sunlight every once and a while. I'm not saying it's going to be a magical cure all for depression or anything, but it does actually help.

Of course, as soon as I say this, the CES is only going to be cold and rainy for the next three weeks, but I figured it was worth putting out there anyway.

( Private notes for Rorschach, Parker, Cass, Shego, Steph and Tim, and an extra Tim. )

So, I know everything's been more or less said and done about that flood, but honestly? I'm still just kind of shocked that for once, I was a kid and came out of it pretty trauma free. [Hell, even if he had actually been mentally fourteen again, things would have been fine. He might have had a weird childhood, but there were good parts of it, and fourteen had definitely been before shit had really hit the fan.

A pause, and then:]

[Somewhat reluctant generous Friends Filter. If you think you're on it, you are.]

Actually, as long as I'm being honest? It helped me realize some things.

I've realized I've spent most of my time here kind of terrified of what was waiting for me back home, and I won't lie, I'm still kind of scared about some of it. I know it all works out okay, now, but there's really no guarantee if I ever leave here I'll remember what I've been told here - [His money is going on that he won't remember, honestly, otherwise things would have gone veryyyy differently. :|] - And I've already lost two parents. I don't need to go through losing another, even if it's going to turn out he was fine. Just... time displaced, or something, so we all just thought he was dead for months.

[A pause. Because, really comic book logic?]

I'm still really not sure how that happened.

But it's going to happen whether or not I want it to, because as much as I might want to? I'm not drastically altering the futures of people I love who say they're happy with how everything worked out in the end, and sitting here pretending like it isn't going to happen is really ridiculous. And something about that flood made me realize maybe this really isn't so bad. There are a lot worse things that could have happened, and I can't hide here forever. And I don't want to anymore.

This isn't a I've had enough, I'm leaving announcement or anything. I've still got a lot of stuff I need to get done here before I seriously think about shipping out for good. But it's nice to not be afraid anymore. Or, to be afraid, but accept that and move forward instead of worrying about it, because everything is going to be okay.

... Kind of embarrassing that it took me a year to figure this out, but, I guess that's better than nothing.

[ooc: And again, comment over on DW here.]

[Private to Carla]

We should talk. Are you still in the infirmary?

[Private to Tim]

So. Some familiar faces are back. [How are you doing. :V]