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Dick Grayson ([personal profile] batmanschmatman) wrote2011-03-13 01:19 am
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029 [audio]

[There's a short pause between the feed clicking on and Dick speaking.]

My parents were murdered when I was eight. I was there when it happened. It was... [He takes a slow breath.] It felt like my whole life was just falling apart and I had no idea what was going to happen or where I was supposed to go or how I was supposed to live without the two most important people in my life.

But I got lucky, because someone was there that night who knew what it was like to have their parents taken away from them. He took me in, gave me a home and support and made life feel like it was worth living again. I know I got lucky. A lot of kids... A lot of kids lose parents and just end up going through foster home after foster home, and if Bruce hadn't been there, that's probably what would have happened to me. I would have been alone and lost, with no idea what I was supposed to do with my life.

Instead, I got a family. They've helped me become the person I am today and I can't thank them enough for it. I've had an amazing life, even if it's not always sunshine and rainbows, and I love my family more then anything.

... I'll always miss my parents. That hurt never goes away, and there isn't a day that goes by where I don't think about them and wish I could talk to them just one more time, but I...

[...]

I wouldn't trade what I have now for the world.

[... Oh crap. Didn't mean to say any of that out loud, to everyone. Fuck you, floods. :|]
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batmanschmatman: (So sulky. :|)

[personal profile] batmanschmatman 2011-03-13 07:06 am (UTC)(link)
I'm guessing someone told you about floods?

[identity profile] feverprophecy.livejournal.com 2011-03-13 07:12 am (UTC)(link)
I got the gist. kinda hard not to, really.

but by all means, learn me good.
batmanschmatman: (Pout.)

[personal profile] batmanschmatman 2011-03-13 07:15 am (UTC)(link)
This is probably one of the more embarrassing ones I've been affected by.

[identity profile] feverprophecy.livejournal.com 2011-03-13 07:18 am (UTC)(link)
[He turns the audio on just so Dick can hear him whistle. Then it goes off again, though why he would prefer text, who knows.]

you're gettin' off easy, bro.
batmanschmatman: (Smirk.)

[personal profile] batmanschmatman 2011-03-13 07:18 am (UTC)(link)
Well, I've only been here for four months.

[identity profile] feverprophecy.livejournal.com 2011-03-13 07:32 am (UTC)(link)
four months, one year, a lifetime — what does it matter, anymore?

makes as much sense as anything else on this fucking ship.
batmanschmatman: (Good listener.)

[personal profile] batmanschmatman 2011-03-13 07:33 am (UTC)(link)
Point being I'm sure something more embarrassing will come down the pike at some time or another.

[identity profile] feverprophecy.livejournal.com 2011-03-13 07:38 am (UTC)(link)
sure. that's life.

but here and now, I just gotta ask: do I have to stick a spigot in you or does the sap come out naturally on its own?
batmanschmatman: (Smug.)

[personal profile] batmanschmatman 2011-03-13 08:05 am (UTC)(link)
It depends on the day.

[identity profile] feverprophecy.livejournal.com 2011-03-13 08:09 am (UTC)(link)
that can't be hygienic, Dick.
batmanschmatman: (I am a smug bastard.)

[personal profile] batmanschmatman 2011-03-13 08:15 am (UTC)(link)
No, probably not. I've probably already contaminated a few of you.
batmanschmatman: (Windy hair.)

[personal profile] batmanschmatman 2011-03-13 08:21 am (UTC)(link)
Nothing wrong with being a little sentimental sometimes, Jason.

[identity profile] feverprophecy.livejournal.com 2011-03-13 08:24 am (UTC)(link)
oh, but it goes deeper than that, doesn't it?

pretty profound, when you're at a place in your life where you're apparently secure enough — certain enough — that you wouldn't trade it in.
batmanschmatman: (Pose.)

strikes unreadable >>;

[personal profile] batmanschmatman 2011-03-13 08:29 am (UTC)(link)
Not really. I've felt like this for a long time.

I mean, I'm not saying there haven't been time where I've wanted to trade something, but I've never wanted to trade my family our family the people I care about.

sob

[identity profile] feverprophecy.livejournal.com 2011-03-13 08:35 am (UTC)(link)
well gee, dick

maybe it's just cause I never knew my parents the way you knew yours but I think it takes balls to look them in their undead eyes and say

"your deaths made me who I am today
your suffering created a hero
this is the way things are supposed to be
but don't worry I'll always remember to put flowers on your grave
unless I'm stuck in space somewhere."

even if it's true

especially if it's true.
batmanschmatman: (Please.)

[personal profile] batmanschmatman 2011-03-13 08:38 am (UTC)(link)
It's cute when you try to put words in my mouth.

[identity profile] feverprophecy.livejournal.com 2011-03-13 08:43 am (UTC)(link)
you're really not selling me that you're saying anything else, or maybe you just haven't thought about it.

you know she killed me but I would still find it hard to tell her that I weigh her life against mine and find her wanting.
batmanschmatman: (That's not actually impressive.)

[personal profile] batmanschmatman 2011-03-13 08:47 am (UTC)(link)
Jason, I'm not saying I don't love my parents, or that I'm happy they're dead, or that I'm a better person because of it. But there's a difference between mourning the loss of someone you love and never being able to let it go and live your life the way they would have wanted you to.

[identity profile] feverprophecy.livejournal.com 2011-03-13 08:50 am (UTC)(link)
that's not what I'm saying either.

believe me, nobody's mourning.
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